Let Your Brave Come Through

There are moments when you feel it and you know

Something amazing is happening within your soul

And nothing can hold back what's inside you

Let it move you, let it lead your heart

Don't be afraid to let yourself believe in who you are

Cause today you are gonna be brave

Let your brave come through

Let it define you

-Brave, Hilary Weeks on her album Say Love

Have felt in a bit of a rut lately- just that heavy, stuck feeling. I have a lot of things I want to do, but nothing that seems to be getting accomplished. I was really hoping that the new year would inspire me, but I just seem to feel particularly weighed down instead. I want to write a blog, and exercise, and do a butt-ton of practicing my hand-lettering, and keep my house ultra clean, and think about my husband and others first more often, and better understand the needs of my 9 month-old, and eat healthy, and make meals more for my family, and...and...and...

You can see why I felt a little overwhelmed. 

The older I get, the more I learn about myself, and I am learning that I am the type of person that needs to just start a project and sit down and get it done. I want to more-or-less see the end from the beginning, and tackle it all at once- which means I don't do so awesome with the practicing, failing, 'working on it' phase of life. I just want to be perfect immediately. And if I look at the pile of things that need to get done, and I don't see a feasible way to get them all done in one sit-down or I can't be perfect at them, I shut down. I waste hours on social media numbing myself to the pressing matters. 

BUT I HAVE DECIDED TO CHANGE THAT. 

Today I feel like the song lyrics above, and it feels amazing! There is something inside me that needs out, and I can't wait to find and free it!

 I am working on making a list of resolutions, but I am going to dream big and just go for it instead of holding back. I'm going to start them without the fear of imperfection, because what's the worst that can happen? And what's the BEST that can happen?! Because it's time that I believe in myself and my dreams, and let my heart free. Because even though I have felt stuck for so long, today I felt inspired and motivated, and I want to make all of the wonderful things happen.

I'm going letter in all capitals if I want because lowercase is hard and who needs them anyways? Or color outside the lines, or go for a walk in the freezing tundra outside, or whatever I feel like. Because it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks or says.